Funny how sometimes we get soooo caught up with looking for answers...

Reaching out to someone who you might 'think' is an expert in knowing where you need help the most...
you think it makes the most sense... its most logical... To you, you think they are an expert, therefore they have your answers right??? THEY can solve your problems....

But why put someone else's skill above your own???  sure they might have stories or more experience than you... BUT

....they dont have your drive, your ambition your intuition and you need all of those to find your hearts true desire... so just stop, breathe, have more faith in yourself, allow it to come to you... if it needs time, give it.  Putting limitations on how things you think are 'suppose' to work out is narrowing your ability to just let it come when its really 'suppose' to.  Everything that comes naturally seems to work out the best... ( at least so far for me.)

I believe every girl should own a red dress! :)

... Thinking of last week a certain someone was totally there for me... and I love him for it...

HAD about an hour or less  to rush to Nordstorms to pick out a formal gown to wear for this past weekend and he so willingly came to help me pick one out...

... He helped me a lot... mind you.. he was in the ladies waiting room... think he felt uneasy about that for hmmm 3 mins or so before I told him not to worry like 100 times... his advise was the same with every dress... "looks good"...

... Not every dress can look "good" come on:... too short? too tight? color? too much? too little? Be honest and I mean honest....  His response... "Jenna! I didnt grow up with sisters"... out of the two I liked best... he picked the black one "why would you buy a dress with one shoulder when you can buy one that has two"...
he's too much! ha!

(eeek bought both... no time to decide.. he thinks Im nuts!) 

he's prolly right 

I even dragged him down to the MAC counter to help me with some makeup I needed... (seriously he's the best)

He took one look at the lipsticks and asked...Are those real? Those are fake right?..

Could n o t stop laughing...

needless to say found myself a new shopping partner.

This past week.... 

N U T S!

Plans... do they ever work out?... most the time?.. Not really! 

but HEY thats ok too. Ill go with the flow.

Was planning on a 'date' to my best friends wedding this weekend... well didn't go according to 'plan' but everything worked out (normally does) 

He so politely 'dumped' me... ouch  :( dang it! 

sigh... single life again. grrr. 

soooo... few days before the wedding... was deciding: fly? drive? fly? drive?... couldn't make up my mind. 

Phone rings... friend from southern california... "Hey... can I ask you out for saturday night, fly you out" Me: funny you ask this weekend.. Im planning on being there friday for a friends wedding, trying to figure things out right now...

friend: 'K great....let me take care of you... your flight, hotel, anything you need...

Whatttttt?.. too nice?.. 

Yes think so! 

Answered prayer.... :)  

Thursday night flew in: took cab to the party... ( of course I missed my flight, had to take a later flight) will I ever learn?... eeek 

Made it for the second half... 

SUCH a fun night... didnt know most of the girls... but instantly connected and made for a fun night! 

lots of laughing ... 

licked the frosting off 3-4 cupcakes (my food for the day, if you call frosting food... have been forgetting to eat, as of late) 

almost drank acidetone (you know...taking good care of myself...) In other words I was SUPER tired... girls were a little worried... promise promise im ok! ( ha. ha.) 

Wedding Day

slept in... lovely 

Long drive to temple... fun conversation( silly talk)

 San Diego Temple... (first time)... BEAUTIFUL...

Watching babies... always! 

Before I knew it Heather and Bill walked out hand in hand MARRIED! 

they did it... :) 

(we manage to take a picture at one of the most breathtaking temples... with cars in the background... cause we are AWESOME! ) :)!!!

Love this girl so dang much! she was radiant, glowing and honestly the most beautiful bride ever. Heather is gorgeous inside out. 

I love you sister. B. Twin. 

Reception: totally chill...Backyard of a close friend of heather's

Cafe rio catered 

Im telling you Bill and Heather know how to get married... 

Stress free. Drama free... smiles and laughs at all times... 

perfect! honestly perfect! 

"Oh HEY" Cutting the cake. 

GROOM!

who would have known... Bill marrying our best. 

so happy for them. 

!!!!!

"Love; It will not betray you dismay or enslave you, it will set you free." 

(one of my favorites) :)!

        feelings...

        ...Why is it so hard to obey, obedience could very well be one of the hardest concepts/ principals in this life, sometimes I dont understand, I have to be just willing to "go and do" !
No doubt, no uncertainty, no expression of fear, no murmuring about the difficulty of the commandment . Whatever the lord asks, he expects me to be "up and doing"
When I reach out to the Lord and keep the lords commandments, I am rewarded beyond what I expect, doesn't mean necessarily with worldly possessions but with, peace, joy, comfort and direction. I think too much I associate the word obedience with the word restriction when really obedience allows greater freedom, I become more liberated.
Why do we fight it? Why do we think "we" have the better answer, a better way?... when really we just  end up chasing ourselves in circles filled with drama, pain, and difficulty to realize in the end, obedience to the lord and his commandment truly bring the lasting most real felt joy. Is this what we call lessons learned?.... truly "obedience" is so hard.  I believe that through our actions, through choosing to be obedient and doing so time and time again, is where we feel the raw/realist connection with our heavenly father.